Time to reprint some earlier Mind Jazz "articles" that nobody read.

(Originally posted 1-28-09)

                                      God and no Religion, Please

I suppose this is long overdue but just like the library...if you pay what you owe, then you are back in good standings and everything is free.

For about 35 years I've had a fairly clear picture of WHO I direct my prayers toward.

Since the subject is extremely possession orientated...meaning everybody thinks they have a fairly clear picture of WHO they direct their prayers toward...it is important to free your mind of any thoughts about WHO you direct your prayers toward.

LET YOUR BELIEF SYSTEMS ESCAPE FOR THE MOMENT.....it's like LOVE...if you let it go and it comes back then it was suppose to happen....if it doesn't come back then you start looking other places...or other faces.

IF YOU DON'T PRAY THEN YOU ARE CLEAN AS A WHISTLE WHEN IT COMES TO THIS SUBJECT....and most likely you already have a feeling that the bulls..t is getting ready to fly.

First step is to accept that GOD has no religion.

RELIGION is mankind's way of honoring GOD....and God knows we've had an abundance of different honoring systems on our path of human development.

I WOULD LIKE TO GET RIGHT TO THE ORIGINAL POINT OF NO RETURN

THE MOMENT WHEN ONLY
A
VOID
EXISTED

RESPECTED scientists from all across the globe...claim it was about 14.5 BILLION YEARS AGO that the void suddenly contained LIGHT and MATTER and ENERGY.

THEY CLAIM THERE WAS A RATHER LARGE EXPLOSION AND THEY LIKE TO CALL IT THE BIG BANG.

Which is actually a pretty cool nickname for GOD.

TBB
THE BIG BANG

I realize GOD already has quite a few nicknames and even some of them we aren't allowed to say according to the Jewish faith....but wait a sec....I said no religion and I can't start making fun of them if I don't want to use them for reference points.

AND I REALLY DON'T WANT TO USE ANY RELIGION FOR A REFERENCE POINT IN THIS ATTEMPT TO SHOW WHO I DIRECT MY PRAYERS TOWARD.

THE BIG BANG was able to turn a VOID into a cascading expansion of light, energy and matter that not only continues to this very day but will keep expanding for billions of years before it reaches the point of no return and then starts imploding back to that one single moment when once again all that will exist will be.....the VOID.

ANOTHER COOL NICKNAME...

THE VOIDENDER

The important thing to conceptualize is....

I BELIEVE AN ENTITY CREATED THAT MOMENT WHERE DENSITY OF NOTHING WAS INTRODUCED TO DENSITY OF SOMETHING.

It's fairly easy to assume that such AN ENTITY would be very very powerful...but at the moment of creating matter, light and energy there weren't a lot of comparisons.

SORTA A SINGULAR JOB DESCRIPTION, wouldn't you say, when one creates the first ray of light, the first piece of matter and the first hint of energy.

I PERSONALLY AM IN AWE OF THAT POWER...but yet I have no fear of it.....and that either makes me the stupidest person who has ever lived on Earth or just perhaps a human being who gets it and loves it and respects it enough to say....

"YOU GET MY PRAYERS because you started IT....you BIG BANG....you VOIDENDER.....YOU...................GOD
I have no idea how the interplay works between GOD and human beings. I suspect that it has a amazing resolve but I'm just wishing and hoping because that's what I do....and generally that's what all people do if their goals are realistic.

SPIRITUAL PLANNING IS A CRAP SHOOT and who does what and who goes where is anybody's guess. I have some detailed thoughts about this subject but let's stay on point.

For all I know GOD has created a billion little gods to do the dirty work while THE VOIDENDER keeps expanding the Universe.

All the little things that THE BIG BANG could and should and would do to make a Human Beings life a bit smoother is really of no consequence to me. I believe that WE are suppose to handle that goal and that if WE learn to stop judging and hating and fighting then we might just help smooth out the agenda....and in doing so we would be showing our respect to The VOIDENDER.

I hope GOD hears my prayer of honor and love and respect but hearing is probably way beyond the realm of reality for an entity that created the first moment of light, energy and matter.

EARDRUMS WERE PROBABLY SHATTERED AT THAT MOMENT ANYWAY.

I have a theory that it's just about
FEELING
and not hearing

it's just about
KNOWING
and not seeing

it's just about
LOVE
and not regret

Of course those are just theories and as long as I breathe I will continue my curiosity in to how the interplay works between Human Beings and THE BIG BANG VOIDENDER more commonly known as

GOD

And that's the GOD I pray to and send my personally designed prayer to every time.

The FREQUENCY OF PRAYER is another entire "ARTICLE" and one that I will deal with in the near future....but for now I think I've answered a question that was asked well over a year ago.

"Who do you pray to?"

Well Sharon...there you go.
I've tried to answer in a short explanation because the long explanation takes about 14.5 Billion years and I'm not sure INTEL has enough room on their chip.

That's where my prayers are headed when they leave my mind...where they land I have no freaking clue!

DO YOU?

Michael Timothy McAlevey

First article I wrote about Dark Energy.. 2006

(Mind Jazz B4 I started Mind Jazz)

Dark Energy

11-17-06

Page 25 of today’s LA TIMES has this headline……

Dark Energy dates back to young days of universe

Sub heading reads

The finding gives astronomers an important new clue to how gravity works.

Those might seem like important topics but when I consider that probably only 200,000 people in Los Angeles will read this article, then the importance gets diminished…..well maybe not diminished…. but the reception is truly limited.

SIDE-BAR ON NUMBERS…..circulation of Times is a little over 1 million….of those
readers…..my guess is that 300,000 only read the Sports Section…..another 100,000 only read the Business section…..and 250,000 only read the Calendar section.

Nationwide, the figure probably jumps to 2 million…….who might read this article.
So there are 2 million people today that are asking a few simple questions…..like
what the hell is DARK ENERGY? And don’t we know what causes gravity to work?
Out of the 2 million people there might be 20,000 who know what DARK ENERGY is….and out of those 20,000 there might be 2000 who understand the true concept.

First let’s focus on DARK ENERGY and what it is….or what it wants us to think it is…..or what it might turn into……or what it used to be……

Let’s agree on one principle…..the speculative nature of what DARK ENERGY is….should be a rather large portion of our discussion.

A short definition of DARK ENERGY says it is “the enigmatic force that is causing the universe to expand.”
ENIGMATIC FORCE…..whoa….hold it right there.

Time for definition…..

Enigmatic….of or like an enigma; perplexing; baffling….

which now means we need to define

Enigma…n pl, -mas …to speak in riddles. 1. a perplexing, usually ambiguous, statement; riddle
2.a perplexing, baffling, or seemingly inexplicable matter, person, etc. SYN. See
MYSTERY

I realize that I am not a scientist......nor am I an astronomer…..but I do somewhat understand the English language and when I see the word enigmatic being used to describe DARK ENERGY then immediately I have to ask……

WHO REALLY KNOWS WHAT IT IS,
OR WHAT IT DOES? (And who actually
got to name it?) after all….a mystery is a mystery…..

Even the impeccably intelligent Albert Einstein backed off this issue because there was no concrete evidence….or mathematical proof.

I have a strange feeling that sometime in the relatively near future…..which could mean anytime within the next 5000 years…..someone is going to discover a separate quark environment that will result in DARK ENERGY becoming NOT SO DARK ENERGY
And then someone else will come along and reveal that they have discovered that DARK ENERGY is really LIGHT ENERGY….with tiny slivers of darkness.

Which I believe.... pretty much describes the human species.

I believe that DARK ENERGY is alive and living within the hearts and souls of human beings who could improve the living situations for millions….but who refuse for various reasons.

DARK ENERGY is the refusal to feed the starving masses around the planet
DARK ENERGY is the refusal to supply up to date HIV & AIDS medication to the millions who are suffering around the planet.
DARK ENERGY is the behavior of the warlords in DUFAR.
DARK ENERGY is the behavior of anyone who arranges that a bomb be detonated in the presence of civilians…anywhere on the planet.


Obviously each of us could compile a long list of what DARK ENERGY might be….
And a “NE0-ILLUMINATION” says that “happiness might be based on much truth one can ignore.”

At this moment today….right now….I choose to ignore DARK ENERGY and thus that ends this column.

Peace
Michael Timothy McAlevey

p.s. I have a strange sensation that DARK ENERGY maintains a fairly powerful presence in spite of my refusing to be sucked in. Tomorrow DE could dominate my life and the list could become incredibly lonnnnnnnnnng.

Oscars and other silly things

This Sunday about 30 or so people will be taking home a small statue that signifies the cinematic taste of a limited group of people who generally get to view the product for....free.

 

Make the members pay to see each film and then it might be a real contest.

 

I was actually going to write an entire article about the Oscars but just decided at this very moment to curtail any further energy needed to cover this subject.....but my last comment is

Tina Fey and Amy Poulter should host every awards show...for anything....except the Nobel prizes....even though that would be funny.

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To the ex-gov of Oregon I say......you should have cleaned up the meth problem first and then worked on getting a girl friend.

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As I read about the continuing problems at the Fukushima Nuclear power plant in Japan all I can feel is extreme bullshit coming from everybody involved.  They can't tell us the whole story because it's too depressing.

I've always maintained that the REAL cost of Nuclear power MUST include the cleanup when something goes wrong....and since the cleanup never ends then costs never end, and thus Nuclear energy becomes the most expensive energy ever.  And until we develop microbes that eat Nuclear waste we are stuck with the present problem of where and what to do with BILLIONS of galleons of DEATH.

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IS is NOT OUR PROBLEM.   EGYPT, TURKEY AND SAUDI ARABIA HAVE RECEIVED BILLIONS OF DOLLARS OF US FOREIGN AID AND BILLIONS OF DOLLARS OF REVENUE FOR VARIOUS THINGS FROM THOSE THREE COUNTRIES.  WE HAVE ALSO SOLD THEM BILLIONS OF DOLLARS OF WAR MACHINERY AND IT'S THEIR JOB TO MAKE IS GO TO THE PROMISE LAND....NOT OURS.

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And yesterday WE announced that the United States would enter the wholesale international DRONE business.  I guess that won't cause any future problems for us. And the reason for this is because THEY say China and Russia are doing it so we might as well join the party.

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Watched a short film made in 1942 that explained the amount of US military build up leading to WW11.    In 1940 we went batshit crazy with production of war machinery and obviously it was necessary because of Hitler's European march.  IT CHANGED OUR CULTURE  AND THERE IS NO GOING BACK.  By the time Japan hit Pearl Harbor we were well on our way to becoming  a military state and today we are THE military state. Why someone didn't kill Hitler in the mid or late 30's is because SOME IMPORTANT PEOPLE wanted what we have become....and they not only saw the future, they benefited from it.  Weapons are the ticket and if you can create a better weapon than you have a guaranteed customer in the United States of America,  I sure hope Tesla doesn't start building electric tanks.


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 In the LA TIMES today President Obama got an article published in the OP-ED section.

STOPPING VIOLENT EXTREMISM

PAGE A11

This week in Washington there is a summit of 60 nations meeting to discuss extremism.   I hope Barry doesn't start by mentioning the Crusades again.

Maybe a mini...Council of Faith?


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SPRING TRAINING  is starting and the Dodgers already suffered an injury to an important part of their team......ouch.

Oh well...no TV and back to Vinnie on the radio for 3 innings....radio makes it so much easier to create my artwork.


Peace  (somewhere) please.

Michael Timothy McAlevey

Disipline

February 11 2015

12:15 am

 

I awake in the first 15 minutes of completing my 69 year on this earth.  A dream woke me and the ramifications of the meaning behind the dream leave me with a sense of beauty and desire to create what I know should be the continued development of my responsibility and evolution of who I am and what I was born to do.

 We all have an individual call to enlightenment that binds the collective consciousness but unless we develop the proper DISCIPLINE than the journey becomes cloudy and the mist that settles on our lives prevents awareness from building the foundation needed.

 As long as we inhabit a physical reality we are building that foundation which helps us with the structure of becoming aware of our true and eternal nature.

 Our eternal nature resides in the non-physical reality.   I choose to use this term but most of you already know it as the….soul.

 If we are extremely fortunate, we might get 100 years on this physical level.  A hundred years compared to eternal reality is fairly close to nothing.  Within that very short period of time, whatever length it might be, our job should be to build a foundation that leaves some type of legacy which resembles the most important aspects of human nature. 

 What you and I think are the most important aspects of human nature will most likely vary depending on so many tangents.

 

If you don’t develop the proper DISCIPLINE than it might be rather hard to achieve whatever your goals might be.

 

The DISCIPLINE OF LOVE is extremely challenging, especially if you are directing it outside of your immediate family and friends.

 

I can’t express enough how disappointed I am with planetary behavioral patterns that seem to be failing to display the DISCIPLINE OF LOVE.

 I am disappointed in myself for not developing the physical balance that is needed to achieve what I want to achieve.

 I know the answers on how one should perfect their physical harmony.  But it’s hard work and it doesn’t just happen, especially with all the outside temptations.

 One has to take their physical energy and direct it toward physical success and that is done by diet, prayer and exercise.

 

The diet part is easily the hardest. Eliminating hazards in your daily diet means the end of so many things that taste good.  But I’m here to remind you that with the proper use of herbs and natural spices you can learn a new level of substitution that will work.

This sugar thing has gotten completely out of hand and you know it and I know and everybody knows it but yet…….

 It might be the single hardest addiction to break.  

                                                                           It’s got so many disguises.

 

Having a piece of fruit for dessert instead of ice cream sounds so easy but have you tasted Jamoca Almond Fudge? 

 

I break so many rules when it comes to discipline that I feel lucky to still be here.

 

The dream that woke me up had cascading waterfalls and lush green foliage being guarded and protected by a family with a beautiful daughter who for some ungodly reason fell in love with what I was talking about when I suddenly appeared on their property. (Dreams are instant location finders if you hadn’t noticed)

 

Her father took her off and explained that I had no discipline of love.  He told her that I loved everything but nothing in particular.  Her mother told her that I had awareness of discipline but that I had no sense when it came to acting on that awareness.  They got together and decided that I needed to meet the oldest daughter who lived in the mountains by herself and truly had no desire to interact with human beings.  They send me off into the mountains where I encountered her from a distance but before I could approach her she yelled out…..”You have to stay at a lower level until you get clean.”  I answered her with….”I take a shower every day.”  Before turning and going back into the amazing tree house she lived in she simply said…..”My family thinks you are someone important but until you are important to yourself I can’t be around you.  Come see me after you develop the proper disciplines.”

 

I woke up and wanted a cigarette and a cup of coffee with a scoop of ice cream in the coffee.

 

I mean it’s my birthday and.......

 

.......................I’m just not sure what she meant by discipline.

 

Dreams can spin everything out of control

                 as can birthdays as you grow older and older and older.

 

Damn……it’s time to act on the disciplines I know to be true.

How about you?

 

Michael Timothy McAlevey

 

Lack of Islamic cartoonists might be the problem

POLITICAL CARTOONS

Origins[edit]

A Rake's Progress, Plate 8, 1735, and retouched by Hogarth in 1763 by adding the Britannia emblem^[2][3]

The pictorial satire of William Hogarth has been credited as the precursor to the political cartoon.^[4] His pictures combined social criticism with sequential artistic scenes. A frequent target of his satire was the corruption of early 18th century British politics. An early satirical work was an Emblematical Print on the South Sea Scheme (c.1721), about the disastrous stock market crash of 1720 known as the South Sea Bubble, in which many English people lost a great deal of money.^[5]
His art often had a strong moralizing element to it, such as in his masterpiece of 1735, A Rake's Progress. It consisted of eight pictures that depicted the reckless life of Tom Rakewell, the son of a rich merchant, who spends all of his money on luxurious living, services from sex workers, and gambling—the character's life ultimately ends in Bethlem Royal Hospital.^[6]
However, his work was only tangentially politicized and was primarily regarded on its artistic merits. George Townshend, 1st Marquess Townshend produced some of the first overtly political cartoons and caricatures in the 1750s.<sup>[4][7]

(wikipedia)

Ben Franklin's Join or Die cartoon is credited with being a very early form of this type of political statement.  In 1754 this piece appeared in the Pennsylvania Gazette. Obvious intention although not very funny....but strange how it has a snake involved and those radical dickheads throughout the world always refer to us as The Snake. (And by the way....where's the Ben Franklin Movie?...sounds like a perfect role for Sir Tony Hopkins)</sup>

Personally I think the snake has gotten a fairly raw deal and it's obvious that The Bible has played a major role in how we "view" the serpent.

From what I've read about the amount of rats in NY and Paris, it might be a good idea to unleash a few million snakes into the sewer system of both cities and let them chow to their heart's delight.  Then we turn around and unleash a 100,000 mongooses and let them do their thing.  Then after they've finished we bring in about 500 Jackals and let them go nuts.  Then last but not least, we bring in those guys on the Hunting Cable Channel and tell them to finish the project.  We then cancel the cable show and everything gets back to normal.

NORMAL

adj. adjective

1. Conforming with, adhering to, or constituting a norm, standard, pattern, level, or type; typical.
   normal room temperature; one's normal weight; normal diplomatic relations.
2. Functioning or occurring in a natural way; lacking observable abnormalities or deficiencies.
3. Relating to or designating the normality of a solution.

I GUESS IT'S PRETTY EASY TO SAY THAT NORMAL
MIGHT BE A VERY ABSTRACT WORD

ABSTRACT
adj. adjective

1. Considered apart from concrete existence.
   an abstract concept.
2. Not applied or practical; theoretical.
3. Difficult to understand; abstruse.

 

SO....here's my point of this article.....

 

ISLAM does not allow humor when discussing their religion.  Therefore I'm thinking that because they think that the Koran is the written word of GOD they don't think GOD has a sense of humor.

 

THAT'S A MAJOR FLAW IN THEIR THINKING....and it's a flaw that needs to be addressed and corrected.

 

It doesn't do any good for non-Islamic cartoonists to create the satires...IT MUST BE DONE BY THEMSELVES.

 

As Joesph Campbell said...."Participate with joy in the sorrows of the world."

 

ISLAM needs to see that making fun of oneself is fundamental to being happy and a lot less uptight.

 

I'D LIKE TO SEE THIS HAPPEN AS SOON AS POSSIBLE....wouldn't you?

 

I think Pearls before Swine should be required reading in all Muslim countries.....on a daily basis.

 

But that's just me you see.

 

I'm a problem solver.

 

Michael Timothy McAlevey

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

2015 or ?????????

Welcome to 2015

This morning I went to the market to buy a tomato and a potato.  Not quite the same kind of chore as Jack did when he took the cow to market and ended up with those beans that made everybody hallucinate, but we all have our own journeys.....don’t we?  

I simply have one question. 

 

WHY ARE TOMATOES SO EXPENSIVE?

I can grow tomatoes on my porch.  I can’t grow a potato because I don’t have a field or a tractor.

Tomatoes are $2.99 a pound.

Potatoes are .99 cents a pound.

IT DOESN’T MAKE ANY SENSE.

So many things that are happening financially on this planet  

are BAFFLING.

 

The price of tomatoes might not be the most important financial issue confronting us but since I love tomatoes I’m making it number one on my list.

 

What’s number one on your list?

The price of oil might be the most confusing to people because……

what changed since last year? 

Did China and India stop buying oil? 

Did Japan discover their own oil?

 

We’ve been told for five years that the cost of gasoline was due to the increased demand of the emerging middle classes in both China and India.

 

The biggest crock is the explanation that it’s bad for the economy if oil stays below $60 a barrel.

 

THE CONSUMER BENEFITS FROM LOW OIL PRICES…..period!

CHEVRON AND EXXON DON’T BENEFIT FROM LOWER OIL PRICES AND THAT MEANS THE TRICKLE DOWN BULLSHIT WON’T BE WORKING PROPERLY.

 

THE TRICKLE DOWN ECONOMIC PLATFORM, PUT INTO PLAY BY RONALD REAGAN, IS THE SINGLE BIGGEST CROCK OF BULLSHIT EVER DEVELOPED….AND THE AMERICAN PEOPLE HAVE BOUGHT IT…..HOOK, LINE AND SINKER.

 

IT INCREASES PROFIT MARGINS FOR THE LARGE CORPORATIONS AND THUS INCREASES THE WEALTH OF THE INFAMOUS 1%.

 

My New Year’s Resolution

 

Attempt to help wake up the American public TO CERTAIN FACTS….and sell more artwork.

 

FACTS:

The people that don’t vote…..need to vote....and buy my artwork.

The people who don’t pay attention…..need to pay attention…to everything.

People who think racism isn’t alive and well in America need to wake up.

People need to understand that racism is a learned behavior.

The people who think THE 1% give a rat’s ass about the rest of us need to understand what’s happening.

The people who claim a higher minimum wage will just increase prices need to see that prices are increasing and will increase ANYWAY.

Chickens not trapped in tiny tiny cages will produce better eggs.

Climate Change is an issue to be discussed not shunned.

Religious differences are not differences settled by any type of physical harm to another human being.

 

TOMATOES need to be under a dollar per pound.

 

FURNITURE Manufacturing AND Service (call centers) jobs need to be brought back into the American industrial complex.

THERE NEEDS TO BE AN INDUSTRIAL AMERICAN COMPLEX.

American Car Manufactures need to build 50% of their products capable of getting 75 miles per gallon.

Doctors have to stop being partners with

Pharmaceutical companies.....and they need to buy my art work.

George Clooney should run for President.

By the way.......

You should buy a piece of my art work…or trade me those tomatoes that are growing in your yard.

 

WHATEVER!!

JUST GET MORE INTERESTED IN

EVERYTHING

IN

2015

Happy New Year

 

But then again, always keep in  mind one important question…………what year is this really?

 

13,595,876,237 or 13,595,876,238?

I know one thing…..it’s definitely the year of the Tomato.

 

Michael Timothy McAlevey

Dear Santa,

This is the first letter I’ve written to you since kindergarten.  You might have answered that letter but of course I probably asked for a Mr. Potato Head and or a Davey Crocket cap or maybe a set of Pick-Up-Sticks…so my requests weren’t over the top gifts for you to find, locate and then deliver.  I’m pretty sure I wasn’t thinking large like a bicycle or a pony at that stage of my career…..and I would wager that all my requests were under the tree in 1951.

In 1952 at the ripe old age of 6, me and my brother Jerry, who was 10 at the time, and my sister Gigi who was 6 months old, did indeed receive a real life horse.  Her name was Nancy and she was a Palomino-Paint of some unknown breed.  My step-father rode this beautiful lady down the driveway with red ribbons in her mane and tail.  We had moved from Hollywood the previous summer and that Christmas was quite memorable…..and basically was the beginning of our 4 H experience.  I obviously remember working and playing with many other animals that we raised on our small “ranch” in Sylmar California….but that moment on Christmas day 1952 jumps out when I recall my childhood Christmas memories. At the time Sylmar was similar to Montana but of course on a much smaller scale.  Our “ranch” was about 5 acres and contained almost every form of farm animal that one can imagine except of course Mr. Pig or Mr. Cow.   We had no Swine after Pearls but we had tons of four and two legged creatures.

The only reason I’m telling you this Santa is because I want to remind you that impossible things can still happen if you put your mind to the task at hand.

I’m writing this letter to ask for a few specific things.

First I need an agent. 

Second I need a Public Relations person. 

Thirdly I need a publicist  (slightly different than PR)

Fourthly I need an art patron.

I’d ask for more but I’ve never used the fifthly word in a sentence.

The order of the four requests is not important but each of those entities is extremely important for the next stage of my personal evolution.

I’m was extremely pleased with my various 2014 exposures, but knowing that I’m just getting started in the exposure arena one must understand that the moments I had, being able to share my “stuff,” were just whistle wetter’s….teasers….and hints of what I might accomplish.

Santa, since you are the main fictional secular character in the life of so many young people on this planet…..I thought maybe that including an older artist on your to do list might not be such a bad idea.

Think about the extra publicity if you grant these four little things.  Now, I realize that some won’t regard these “things” as little, but for a person with your show biz connections I feel secure in saying….”this should be an OMG no problem dude done deal” for you….after all, you are the man.

 You are the dream maker and  right now I imagine there are at least 20 to 40 million very young people writing letters to you and getting ready to mail them out.

 

So what’s one more?

 

And the fact that I’m writing my letter on Google’s BlogSpot site simply means I’m saving paper and for that I should be rewarded…..right?

 

I know you are busy and I realize this is the home stretch but if you vet my entire practice schedule and see how I’ve stuck to the plan you will agree that it’s now time for the BIGGER PICTURE to unfold.

 

Those four things I need, will help make it happen.  Of course if the Art Patron comes through first, I might be able to figure out how to do the other three things on my own.

 

I don’t want to…..but I would if that’s the only gift you can find in that very large bag of tricks that  must filled up and delivered by the 25^th.

 

If you need any extra help….don’t hesitate to call.

 

I’m listed in the phone book.

 

Thanks BIG MAN

 

Michael Timothy McAlevey

This is IT

12-8-2014

It’s so obvious that I’m doing something extremely wrong
And it can’t be blamed on writing a silly poem or a really stupid song
It’s got to be something that hides behind the façade of my core
I keep pushing the edges of artistic and scientific reality
but I need to do more

 

If I think and concentrate on what I’ve failed to achieve
Than I start to question what I’m supposed to believe
And then it hits me in an area where I just don’t care
Smack dab in the wallet and the large empty air

 

I mean it’s really empty and void of things that I need
A quantum void that thinks my protons should bleed
Something is missing in the program I’ve selected
And it makes me wonder what exactly I’ve neglected

 

I can look at my work and see what I’ve done
But simply doing the work doesn’t create much fun
IF
I can’t even afford to pay my rent
The direction I travel just makes me wonder where I went

 

I came here from there and then moved over to another road
And then I remember what I haven’t been told
Of course one needs coin for the basic supplies
But it can’t be the goal when seeking the spiritual wise

 

Seriously…it’s obvious that I’m doing something wrong
And I wish I could blame it on this stupid poem or song
But it’s bigger
And
it’s stronger
And beats me down every time
There is no money in a white man’s rhyme

 

I hear other’s tell me that I’ve got so much going on
And then I hear those same people say
I hate that song
You are doing something wrong
Please make it short
I’ve got to move along
 

I’ve gotten help from family and friends many times before
But that one big patron
Just hides
Behind an unseen door

 

 And it must be my fault that I can’t find the key

I’d hate to think
That’s its
just
Me
Being
Me

 

That’s not good for keeping a positive point of view

So I always turn it around
And
Blame it on
You

 

Why should you take an interest in what I’m trying to achieve

When you aren’t even sure in what I believe

 

I’m the one not making it perfectly clear

So I’m the one who creates the fear
While asking others to stand and cheer
And that emotional devotional hodgepodge of random semi awareness
Results
In a personal cosmic unfairness

I blame others for not seeing who I am

And who I am
Might not be who I thought I was
And that might be based on
Just
Because

There is no simple answer to the questions I seek

So I dance behind the curtain of the poor and the bleak
I don’t over spend and I don’t throw it away
But when it comes to making money
It’s a game I can’t play

 

I rationalize the poverty by saying look what I’ve done

But after everything is accounted for
It’s not really fun

 

I make beautiful designs with extreme color and flow

and some of them even have a unique type of glow
To ask others to help pay my way is really not my goal
But it keeps playing out that way and it’s hurting my soul

 

If what I make doesn’t pay the rent

Then it’s time to look down the road from where I have went
And stop and question the very nature of my being
Which when one does that it’s to the past one must cling

 

I don’t like the thought of looking back to see where I’ve been

I’d rather go forward and create a new trend
Something that is different in style and design
A unique way of maneuvering between the walls of mind

 

BUT WTF

 

It’s so obvious that I’m doing something wrong
And it can’t be blamed on writing a silly poem or a stupid song
It’s got to be something that hides behind the façade of my basic core

I keep pushing the edges of a not so obvious reality
but it’s perfectly and wonderfully clear
that
I
need

to

do

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